The only fist

After my conversation with a gorgeous 28 year old, I have a newfound curiosity, not quite interest, but curiosity for my ability to deliver this practice of f*sting. I am not about to become a kink dispenser as I need proper exchange, like deep connection, care and more…in order to play. 

However, it is interesting how seeing delight in someone’s face could change my boundary to an edge—changing my ’hard no’ to a ‘soft no’, to a ‘maybe.’ 

It’s just another reminder for me that gratification can be more about intimacy, sharing experience and playfully expanding range, versus a focus on reaching climax or even a measurement of electricity.